Friday, April 5, 2013

Sad news

We started getting very faint home pregnancy tests on Thursday (5dp5dt) and they got a little darker each day until Sunday.  IM and I were excited but cautious and so we snuck a beta on Tuesday at 10dp5dt.  We were looking for a range of 50 at the very, very least as the RE wanted levels of at least a 100 at 12dp5dt.  Ours was a 20.  Repeat beta yesterday and it was at a 12.  So, we had a chemical pregnancy. 

I'm tired.  It's been a tiring week of hoping and then getting scared and hoping again and getting scared and then the last part was just drawn out longer than it should've been and so when we got results today, it was expected, but not that much less of a pill to swallow.  These were the last two embryos of 7 and my IPs had hopes and dreams for them and now that's gone. 

So, that's how this chapter of our story ends.  Thank you for being so supportive of us. Above all, my IM and I are so happy to have found each other and that if we had to go through this, that it was together.

My heart is so heavy for them.  Please pray for their healing.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Gestating the Truth

Get it?  Gestating the truth/Just stating the truth.  hahahaha.  So punny!

Soooo, I know everyone is waiting for news and I promise to share with the whole wide world of the interwebs just as soon as I have the green light.  As open as my IPs and I are, this is a very emotion-filled time of waiting, wondering, watching, wishing, and myriad other things that start with "w" and it's understandable that they'd like to process whatever is/isn't to be before we post.  So, please be patient, my friends.  Good things come to those who wait and I promise to post soon!!